| | The color scheme is atrocious, my brain's shrunk, and we haven't had anything to eat except maggoty meat for three stinkin' days. I wish summer were here, for lots of reasons. Firstly, I'm tired of studying day in and day out - I enjoy the studying, but when there's not even hope of being able to relax, truly relax, until it's all over on June 8, it's kinda disappointing. Secondly, I want a fresh start on my life. This season's gone on for so long already. It's getting hard to see what life might be like in a different season. If things continue on as they are (a faulty assumption, I know), I'm going to have to make some drastic changes to my life. One of them might involve shaving my eyebrows, I don't know. Finally, I guess I want summer to be here because there have been far too many frustrations associated with this semester. It's that whole delayed gratification thing.
In this season, in this semester, everything has pointed to waiting. But hope of actually seeing my desires fulfilled is dying. Proverbs 13:12 puts it this way: "Hope deferred makes the heart sick, but a longing fulfilled is a tree of life." This semester has severely tested my patience in ways I am only beginning to understand, and I can only pray that some of my desires will be fulfilled soon. One of those desires is to be applying the things I've learned in the clinic. I remember back at the beginning of medical school most of my classmates were already really looking forward to 3rd and 4th years, while I was still trying to enjoy learning what was there. But now I'm just reviewing everything I've learned so far (not enough), and I'm longing for the day when I'll be able to apply that knowledge to something. How much longer must I wait? "We wait in hope for the LORD; He is our help and our shield. In Him our hearts rejoice, for we trust in His holy name. May Your unfailing love rest upon us, O LORD, even as we put our hope in You." (Psalm 33:20-22).
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